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My heel spur hurts like a bitch.　

Have you ever been sad for no reason? Well, I guess I have my reasons. But it’s no more than everyone else has to deal with, and I feel weak for whining about them, so I hold in my tears until I can’t cry about anything, but then a song will come on a radio station or I’ll hear a line from a movie, and the breath I’m taking will get caught in my throat, and I’ll feel like I’m just about to bawl. And every day I’m not in school, it seems easier and easier to never go back. I just want to get away, so badly. I’m so jealous of my brother and cousin getting to go to canada and michigan in the morning, taking a road trip with their closest friends, and I just feel so TRAPPED. I can’t miss work, I can’t quit my job. Because I have to pay my car payment and my insurance all by myself while my mom just gives Ian money to do shit and Josh’s parents pay for his stuff so all he spends his money on is going to the movies, and gas, and buying dip. And the only reason I got the stupid fucking car is so that I could go to school and now I’m taking online classes and we may be moving and it’s NOT FUCKING FAIR. My mom just dotes on Ian and I never even have the money to buy myself a fucking shirt, and he should be in my place because he’s almost twenty-one and I’m barely eighteen, but that’s not how it works. I just need to talk about it because then maybe I won’t feel so sad if I can just get it all out and cry, but I don’t have anyone I CAN talk to it about, because all of my friends have their own problems, and everyone is sad, so I just keep working and keep silent about how fucked up it all is. 　

and I don’t really know what to make of it I mean I’m only on page 60 of like, 600 (ebook version waddup) but still. My friend Alex told me to start reading it, so I did, but I just don’t know. I mainly keep reading it because I’ve read everything else 10+ times in the past few months, I don’t know. I keep getting the characters confused. Maybe I should just start watching the show.

So after hanging out with large black men last night, they gave us their hookah and coals for the summer. 

So Josh has been addicted to the Doctor for about a month now, but I finally got Ian addicted even though he was all, “This is shit, look at that video quality barf” for the first few seasons. They’re smitten with Matt even though David was their favorite, and I couldn’t be more proud.(:

When 10th was regenerating and said, “I don’t want to go,” I looked at Josh and I said, “Josh, ma creys,” And he goes, “Aja. Waterpark for all ma creys.”

obv. we are related.

Anyway, even after rewatching seasons 1-4, I still think David Ten-inch is the best Doctor ever. It’s just kind of a shame he couldn’t use his over-whelmingly sexy Scottish accent in the role sigh.

So my dad was using my computer while I was asleep and he was APPARENTLY LURKING THROUGH MY SHIT, and he called me in the kitchen and was like, “Aja, I want you to take this video of me off immediately.” So I said, “What video are you even talking about?” And he goes, “Click on that icon, as soon as you click on it it brings it up. Someone took a video of me while I was drunk and being an asshole.” It was my fucking webcam. -____- He was watching himself rage about a video that was just my webcam displaying him while he was being a sober asshole. 

What. An. Idiot.